Done.

I'm not really done with anything, but I feel done. I'm just...full-up, ya know? I think I just hosed my phone, which could be a very costly mistake, and I just...feel like I'm falling apart and don't have the energy or will to pull it back together.

This is a very depressing post. Happy Thanksgiving! *sigh*

I have many people whom I love and who love me.

I have a fiance who loves me dearly.

I have a house that is on it's way to being fantastic.

I have a cat that provides hours of entertainment with her silliness.

I have a good job that is secure.

I am thankful for all of those things, and everything else that I have that's good in my life. I am.

This is not a cry for help. I'm just venting a bit. The phone thing is really upsetting, but if I have to buy a new one, well...it won't be the most expensive thing I've paid for this year (or month, or week). And it's just money. That sounds fucking awful when people are really struggling, but it's true. I'm trying really hard to not freak out about money, and it's hard, but like...it's all doable, too. It's a crazy amount of debt, but there's also a house that is part of it, and all the money I'm pouring into it is going to be returned on the value of the house, even with this crappy economy and housing market. And if it's a phone, or holiday presents, or whatever...I'm going to not stress about it.

So apparently I did have the energy to pull myself together. I never think of myself as being particularly strong-willed, but I think I have to reassess that. I concentrate too much on the things I don't do and not enough on the things I have done.